What the Foop?

LMAO, do you know who said “What the foop?” Titus Andromedon, from Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt on Netflix. Titus said, “What the foop?”, when he discovered someone had used his voice and personality as a character for a bladder control commercial. No, no one is impersonating me, but I love the saying and I love the show! Kimmy, I can relate to, I feel like, I was released from that same underground bunker with her and there’s this world out there that I can’t wait to explore while wearing light-up shoes. If you’ve been following me on IG you know this girl is on fire! I stepped out of the bunker and the sun is shining.

I’ve been a graphic designer for 18 years and I love to design, but it’s completely different than picking up a pencil to draw or a brush to paint. For years, I chained myself down inside that bunker, not allowing myself to feel creative or artistic. Yes, this sounds nuts even to me, but I put these excuses out there, like there’s not enough…time, money, space, brushes, paint, good lighting, blah, blah, blah!

You see what I’m saying? I let all those excuses get in the way of me being creative and fulfilled. Part of it was my lifestyle, but the other part was food. YES, food! Food can be extremely mood altering. Once I removed those obstacles it’s was as if I was released and could do whatever I wanted to do, whenever I wanted to do it. I can tell you that I’m out of control learning and discovering my ability to write, draw, sketch and explore. I want to do everything and now I am. Normally, I would have found an excuse on why I couldn’t, now I can’t find an excuse on why I shouldn’t!

The other day, I was explaining to my friend, Marc, that I feel like a new person. I control my destiny and the path that I’m going to take to get there. I feel like Neo, in the Matrix, when he discovers his “ability”. He had that “ability” the whole time, he just didn’t believe in himself, but when he did…everything stopped. There was this clarity, no matter what the obstacle he could step to the left or he could step right to avoid that punch to the face. No, I can’t avoid a punch to the face, but nothing feels unattainable or unstoppable. You might be thinking this poor girl has lost it, but this is real for me.

I’m inspiring not only myself, but others. I know this because they tell me. Every time, I run into someone who follows me or knows me, they say, “I want to do what you’re doing” or “I want to feel like you do”. Ok, well…you know your life; you know what you’re doing or not doing. Time doesn’t care about your excuses; it just keeps going. Our lifetime is seconds, one day you’re going to look back at it and realize how fast it went. All I can say is fill those seconds with joy and happiness. Make your life yours! If you want something…go get it. Don’t expect someone else to step in and help you get there, figure it out and take your own first step.